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I have recently been reading a lot of Elisabeth Elliot books. She is my favorite author because she is so wise and truthful. She has this amazing ability to point everything back to God's truth, and I am always encouraged when I finish reading. Some of what I read has made me think a lot. One of the main things I have pondered is the wonder of being a woman and the fact that woman was created for the man because God, in His infinite plan, knew that Adam should not be alone.

Elisabeth Elliot is a very conservative lady, and she was raised in a completely different generation than I. She tells the story of her first date. The rules were simple: boy asks girl, he has a plan for the evening, he is a gentleman, he asks her parents' permission, and gets her home by curfew. Also, there were other old-fashioned rules that applied of course. Later, she went on to say that her daddy told her brothers that if he was ready to tell a girl he loved her then he better be ready to marry her. Apparently they stuck to this little rule of thumb. I think I agree...

I read this and think it sounds great. If only things were like they used to be. Now we have this awkward dating scene, where we go into it seeing what we can get from it, and don't think about the long term affects it will have on our lives. I wish somebody would have stopped me from dating my first two boyfriends. And the last two relationships are not a better story. I wish things could be simple. I wish I didn't give my heart away and follow my emotions instead of God's will. I can't change the past and God is good, but I was done with trying to find 'a guy' and looking for the wrong type of guy yet justifying that he was 'good for me'. I wish somebody would have told me to stop chasing boys, because it is not our job to initiate. God is in control, and everything is great when it is according to God's perfect order. It glorifies our Creator when we live as He intended us to live.

I have been single for the last five years. Most of the time I remained content, but there were a lot of moments recently where I wondered when, or if, a guy would ever approach me. I believe that is the mans job, and I had to patiently wait for that to happen. Imagine my surprise when a guy approached me after church. He did it more than once, and ever since I met him he has initiated everything. What in the world is going on? Seriously, I was confused by it because finally a guy was doing things right. We became friends and are now a couple. Oh, and I still let him initiate because that is still the mans job.

I want God's will and not mine. How many times have I said that and not held up my end? But God is working in our lives and I trust in His perfect will, and I am thankful!

He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all-how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Romans 8:32